This week for me was very eye opening I will say. I realized I am not a kid anymore (funny because I am 20 and I am just now realizing I am not a kid anymore). I sometimes miss being a kid and not having the same responsibilities I have now. Relationships don’t always last, it either being a friendship or an intimate relationship. I recently watched this movie ‘Clouds’ . It made me realize your life is not guaranteed, love yourself and most importantly do what makes YOU happy and not others, STOP caring about what others think or have to say about you because at the end of the day your happiness is what matters and not others. You do not need a group of friends to be happy or go on adventures with. I have two friends and one of them means the world to me, my partner and my adventure buddy. If I could, I would always choose her. Unfortunately, the society that I live in makes it impossible for me to live my life the way I want to. It stops me from loving the person I love the most and forces me to think about what people will say. I did get to learn a lot from  my past and I feel like it has made me a lot mature and helped me make mature choices/decisions. I just sometimes wish life was not as complicated as it is but I guess this is what you call ‘life’ right?. Well, that is how my week went. Finals have started and so far I have been doing great in them!

This week was normal, nothing really interesting happened. Finals are coming up and it’s just me trying to catch up on all my assignments and get my work done. Studying for my  finals and I also graduate this week from memorizing the Quran. Since the days are shorter and it gets dark by 4:00pm there is not much I can do. It is also very cold now too, which means I cannot even ride my bike or go on long walks. I have actually tried not eating from outside anymore, I am cutting eating outside food because I eat it way too much. I just cannot say ‘no’ to food. It is as if I will die if I say no to eating, that is one thing I love to do. I have actually made a lot of progress regarding my assignments and that has made a lot stress free. I went out to Starbucks with my friends twice this week, that was a mind refresher. I just want this semester to be over so I can play my PS5 in peace with no stress. I actually forgot to mention I ordered the PS5, I had my entire family on their phones or any kind of device on the Walmart website. The PS5 was sold out in 20 seconds. Luckily, I was able to get it.

This week was one of my favorite weeks ever in a long time. My aunt hosted a dinner for my family at their house. It was actually my girlfriends house. No one knows that we are together in our family, which made everything 100 times more exciting and fun. She was the one who opened the door when we came. She looked so beautiful wearing her black traditional dress. Both of us made direct eye contact and our hearts were racing. It was all very risky, but the thrill was so fun. Her brothers and I are friends, well we are family friends after all. Trying to see each other secretly and making eye contact it all felt like a movie. Looking for excuses to get a glimpse of each other. The food was amazing as always, she told her mom to make some of my favorite dishes. In order to be in the same room together we had to come up with a plan. The boys were playing UNO and cards, so I asked the girls if they wanted to play as well since she was with my sister and her sister. They all agreed to play. We all started to play and I think it was my favorite part of the day. Our siblings know we like eachother so all their eyes were on us, we had to be careful and not make anything suspicious. I did not want to go home, I was having so much fun. I loved that our siblings were playing together and it just felt so good. When we had to go home it made me so sad. It was a very memorable day, I still cherish it till this day. Soon, my mom is going to a dinner for their family and I cannot wait.

This week started off very hectic but gradually as everyday went by the week was getting better. I had a lot of exams coming my way. I didn’t know if I was ready for them. I spent many hours tirelessly trying to study for my exams. The day finally arrives for my Chemistry exam. I feel like I am ready for this. I just want it to be over with. I start taking the test. I realize that the test isn’t that hard and I have studies for pretty much all of it. I am racing through my questions and next thing you know I am already at the last question and I have about 30 minutes to spare. The bad part is that I cannot go back to review so I press the submit button. I was shocked when I saw my results to the 32 question multiple choice exam. Not to my belief I had a 66% average. It felt like my heart had dropped through my chest. I hated that feeling. I just wanted to quit. I had never gotten this low grade in my life. After a while I realized that the professor said he will drop one exam out of the three which helped in calming me down. Days pass by from the exam day and its Friday night. My favorite night. I was on my couch being bored when all of a sudden I get a call from my cousin saying he is waiting downstairs. He says lets go to Manhattan to grab some food and he was down to give me a tour of his college. He drove me to Manhattan College and took me on a tour. It was amazing. He showed me the good and the bad about the college. The best part of the college was that they have a senior walk in middle of two gardens where only seniors are allowed to walk and if you are not one you have to walk backwards. I thought this was really amazing. After then we grabbed the very famous halal guys and enjoyed it a lot, well not my taste buds because the hot sauce was super hot. I enjoyed the week a lot except that 66% in Chemistry.

This week, I just wanted it to be over. It is that time of the semester where you start counting down how many days are left for it to be over. I had exams and quizzes all week. Lets just say, they did not go as planned. I did not get to go outside either this week because of the rainy weather and now it is starting to get cold. It has been really cold all week, I get super cold. My hands and feet never get warm. I actually use a hairdryer to warm myself, probably never heard of that before but that is the only way I somehow get a little warm. I honestly personally hate winter. I cannot ride my bike with my brother and cousin, enjoy nature, go on long walks and just enjoy the warm weather. It makes me upset knowing I will not be able to do what I love the most. We have to stay in all the time, especially because it is cold and then because of the coronavirus. Apparently the cases are rising and we may have a lockdown soon. My twin and I went to the mosque twice this week even when it was raining like cats and dogs. The mosque is always fun but on Thursday he let us out early because the mosque is under construction. My friend came over and we went to get ice cream, we blasted music in the car that was fun. Today, my twin and I decided to learn a traditional dance called ‘bhangra’. It was something different and we loved it, but we still need to practice a lot. That was about my week.

This week, I will say it was just okay. It was mostly doing homework and being with family other than that nothing interesting. Sometimes I wish my life was a little more exciting but it’s okay. I did go biking two or three times this week with my brother and cousin. I actually started to workout again and not eat a lot, but that only worked out for two days. I ended up having Popeyes and McDonalds. I just have been very lazy lately and do not feel like doing much. My siblings and I sometimes go on night drives where we just drive around, get something to eat and that is something I look forward to a lot. We actually got some bad news this week as well, both my grandparents have been very sick and ended up having surgery. They are in Pakistan and there was nothing much we could do but pray for them. My parents have been very tensed about it which is understandable, but seeing my dad upset just breaks my heart. Both of my grandparents are fine now, thank god. It was actually my older sister’s birthday today. My twin, Muhammad and I went to get pizza for the family and he was driving. I was scared for my life, he is not a bad driver but I love messing with him. Overall, it was a calm week.

This week has not been very interesting. It was actually very boring. This week just involved a lot of studying and school. It was also raining almost every day, due to which I had to cancel my plans. It sucked a lot. I had a midterm for African art history, it went very well. I went out to get gyro for my family, that was kind of fun. Mostly because I got to leave the house for a while. I had my Quran class, my twin brother and I went to the mosque on Tuesday and Thursday and took our class. That also went very well. On Tuesday, it was raining so much and I forgot the car keys in my dad’s car and we had to walk to the mosque in the pouring rain. It was not fun. This week did not consist of much to be very honest. Well, my uncle came from Brooklyn. At first I was kind of really mad because he said he will be here by 6:30pm but then called saying he will come at 10:30pm. I was very hungry and ended up eating without them, my mom didn’t let me eat much because “it looks bad” so that kind of got me really mad because like I said before I love food. I ended up forgiving him only because he brought Oreo cheesecake. Yesterday, my twin brother and I decided to give our 8 year old brother a haircut. Lets just say it did not go the way we wanted it to. I was using scissors taking my time cutting his hair, my twin got really lazy and buzzed all his hair off. It was the funniest thing ever. My brother is so mad at us but eventually he will get over it. He isn’t really bald but my twin chopped off almost all of his hair.

This week started off with my nephew’s birthday. We all decided to go to Hibachi in New Jersey to celebrate his birthday. We are all big foodies! We love food. It was a lot of fun, it was a very nice family time everyone enjoyed it a lot. It was also raining all day, the rain didn’t stop for a single minute. It was also movie night, something my cousins and siblings do once a week. We choose a movie, order food and all sit together and watch a movie. Honestly, it feels really good being around family. The rest of the week was just homework, and helping out my dad. I went biking with my brother and cousin again. My wisdom tooth started to hurt again and it was causing a lot of pain and I was unable to eat. I am afraid to get it removed because my brother got his removed last year and they ended up taking all four of his wisdom teeth out and his face was swollen like a balloon. That terrified me forever. I’d rather take the pain for a week than go through that. I played the PS4 with my friends after a long time. I used to play for hours before but lately I have not been playing a lot. It felt good playing after a while. I finished all my homework for the week again, caught up on some more homework due for the following week. I sometimes like to be ahead on my assignments to feel less stressed. That was almost all for this week. I hope next week is more fun!.

This week started off by me being sick. I had a cold/flu, I was scared that it might be corona but it wasn’t. I was sick for three days. I didn’t even go to one of my classes because I felt super weak and unable to get up. I finally started feeling better on Wednesday, that was the first day I went outside to bike with my brother and cousin. It was a lot of fun. We also went to Dunkin Donuts and got ourselves our favorite drinks/snacks. My favorite drink from Dunkin is a medium iced caramel latte, half milk and half cream with whipped cream. It was very nice out on Wednesday as well which made everything a lot better as well. I was on time with submitting all my assignments that made me very happy and stress free. On Thursdays, I have to go to the Mosque because I take a Quran class over there which I enjoy a lot. My teacher is the best. He is very funny. It’s a lot of fun and I get to learn a lot more about my religion and I love it. Friday’s are my favorite because I have no classes and it is also Jumma (holy day) we pray Jumma in the Mosque, wearing our traditional clothes. I mostly go to play ball on Fridays but this Friday I wasn’t able to because last minute family stuff came up. I had work on Saturday, and I loved it so much! I worked after so long so it felt very good to be back at work. I got home around 8:30 pm I showered, and ate. I went out with my siblings to McDonalds and got some more stuff to eat. My wisdom tooth is coming out and it hurts every time I try to eat something. I got myself some ice cream and a smoothie to help me fill my stomach since I was not able to chew on anything. That was my week.

This week started off very hectic but gradually as everyday went by the week was getting better. I had a lot of tasks to do this week and it overwhelmed me a lot. In order to keep everything balanced I decided to make a schedule on google docs about all the homework I had due. Once I made that schedule, it was like a weight lifted off my shoulders. I felt more organized and relaxed. I finished all my homework for the week. I went biking almost everyday with my brother and cousin, that is something that we love doing together. It makes us all feel a little better. A break time from home and school work, some fresh air which is very well needed after having classes all day long. As the weekend approached my mom had dinner at our house for all of our family friends that live close by to us. We had to do a lot of pre cleaning before everyone came, I ran a lot of errands for my mom. My mom cooked a lot of delicious food. When everyone came over, we had a lot of fun. We played games, watched some YouTube, and after we all ate; we decided to watch a movie with all the kids. Everyone left around 12:30 am and we had to clean up after the dinner. I was exhausted after that and it was as if I was feeling sick. I was mocking my brother for having a messed up back the whole day just for me to wake up with a bad back and a cold. Karma I guess. It was quite a week.